Oh, those words. You know which ones I am talking about.
Be Patient, It will Happen.
I know, I know, some may think I am being harsh or a little too emotional or sensitive, but just being honest I AM emotional and sensitive. And guess what? I am okay with that.
I have come to terms with the fact that right now, in this chapter of my life, I am emotional and sensitive and I am finally, after almost a year, just letting myself feel those emotions and giving myself grace.
The grace to be emotional, the grace to be able to not want to be around certain people or triggers that upset me, and the grace to give it all to God. I feel those emotions; sadness, worry, “jealousy”, excitement, and disappointment. I feel them every month.
Maybe you are right, maybe I do need to be more patient, to enjoy the journey and to not worry about it. But what if in order to do so, I need to feel the emotions, to share my journey, to connect with others and to just go through it how I naturally would.
Infertility or trying to conceive is an emotional roller coaster every single month. And honestly, sometimes just hearing the words “I’m praying for you.” is all you really need to hear.