Oh, those words. You know which ones I am talking about.
Be Patient, It will Happen.
I know, I know, some may think I am being harsh or a little too emotional or sensitive, but just being honest I AM emotional and sensitive. And guess what? I am okay with that.
I have come to terms with the fact that right now, in this chapter of my life, I am emotional and sensitive and I am finally, after almost a year, just letting myself feel those emotions and giving myself grace.
The grace to be emotional, the grace to be able to not want to be around certain people or triggers that upset me, and the grace to give it all to God. I feel those emotions; sadness, worry, “jealousy”, excitement, and disappointment. I feel them every month.
Maybe you are right, maybe I do need to be more patient, to enjoy the journey and to not worry about it. But what if in order to do so, I need to feel the emotions, to share my journey, to connect with others and to just go through it how I naturally would.
Infertility or trying to conceive is an emotional roller coaster every single month. And honestly, sometimes just hearing the words “I’m praying for you.” is all you really need to hear.
I am going through the same thing. My husband and I have been TTC for right at 2 years. All of my blood work came back great but my husbands count was slightly low. They put him on Chlomid about 4 months ago and we had a chemical pregnancy at month 2 of him being on the medicine. The medicine is working for him and his count is up to excellent numbers now but we are still not pregnant. The feelings of despair, frustration, and jealousy just consume you sometimes. I feel like you are entitled to whatever feelings you have. I always tell people “it’s not that I am not happy for other people who are pregnant, I am just sad for myself.” Prayers for you❤️
That is so true! Thank you for sharing your story and positive to know his numbers increased! It is definitely a tough journey you can’t really prepare for. I will keep you in my prayers!!
Thank you for this. My thoughts exactly
I will keep you in my prayers! I know this journey isn’t easy.